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Good morning, everybody. Good Shabbos! It is so good to be with you.

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Today is January 17th,

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My cat just turned off my screen, so let's fix that.

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I'm pretty sure it's still January 17th, even if I just disappeared.

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And, um, we are in Parashatva era.

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In the book of…

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Exodus. Rabbi David, I'm having a tech difficulty. I'm gonna throw it over to you while I fix this.

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Let's open up our hearts for all who need healing.

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We can put them in the chat box.

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And for our country, and for our world.

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For ourselves…

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for each other.

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This is a heck of a Torah portion.

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to bring in healing energy.

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We will be standing at the burning bush.

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Receiving names.

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Learning how to move beyond where we are.

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chat box, not sure Julia Butler.

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Everyone's spoken, unspoken.

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Together, Adonai, Elohim,

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Lest are you a deny our God, eternal sovereign.

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Who sanctified us in God's mitzvot.

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prevented us to busy ourselves.

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of Torah.

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So we have…

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Some yumminess from Exodus 6.

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In this excerpt…

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We have owe so very much.

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Among the things we have are the four

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depending on how you count in 5.

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Promises of liberation.

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bring to us into the Passover Seder around which the

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cups of wine or juice.

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are dedicated. One for each of those blessings or promises.

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We have names of God. We have experiences. We have the…

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The journey of liberation in this total place.

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or should we have the first seven plagues without going to get into them.

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Next week is the last three plagues, and we are free. And the week after that is the splitting of the sea,

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So, we're on quite a journey here.

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Let's do what we do.

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We have…

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6 chunks, little chunks, little chocolates from Exodus 6.

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And let's see what happens.

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We've been calling you.

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I mean…

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God spoke to Moshe and said to him, I am Yod-Heh-Bav-Heh. I appear to Avraham,

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to Yitzhak, Yaakov,

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As El Shaddai, but my name, Yud-Heh-Bhub-Heh, I was not made known to them.

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He also established…

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I also established my covenant with them to give them the land of Canaan, the land of their sojourning where they dwelt.

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And I also heard the moaning of the children of Israel that the Egyptians enslaved them.

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And I remembered my covenant.

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Cheryl, you're next.

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Therefore say to the children of Israel. I am Yudhave.

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I will take you out from under the sufferings of Egypt.

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I will deliver you from their slavery. I will redeem you with an outstretched arm and by great judgments.

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I will take you to be my people. And I will be your God.

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And you will know that I am Yutay Vave, your God.

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Who frees you from under the sufferings of Egypt.

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Someone.

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I will bring you into the land that I swore to give to Abraham, to Yesrach, and to Yaakov.

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And I will give it to you as an inheritance.

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I am Yurge of Hay. Rosha spoke thus to the children of Israel, and they did not hear.

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Moshe from shortness. I'm sorry, that just went too small for me to see.

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I've been digging it.

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From shortness of spirit and from hard labor. Thank you.

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I couldn't see that when it moved.

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And you'd have spoke to Moshe, saying. Go and tell Paro, king of Egypt, to let the Israelites depart from his land.

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Moshe spoke before Yudhave, saying. The children of Israel did not hear me, so how will Paro hear me?

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I who am of blocked lips. Yudhave spoke to Moshe and to Aron, and commanded them about the children of Israel.

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And about Paro, king of Egypt, to take the children of Israel out of the land.

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of Egypt.

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And very soon after will be 7 plagues out of 10.

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A whole bunch of stuff.

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Rabbi Rachel, you want to narrate what goes on here? Let's do what we do, and I'm gonna be the note-taker.

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Absolutely.

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All right, friends, what is calling out to us? What says Darshani? What says explain me?

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Other than my cat meowing and I am opening for him the door to get him out of the room.

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You would like to make an exodus from my study, and you may. Go for you.

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I liked, in this one,

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The, uh, well, in the translation you guys have here, the blocked lips.

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that particular word in Hebrew is actually interesting.

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as… well, the other meanings aren't blocked, I guess that's a…

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A more polite way of using it.

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Let's do the thing.

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But, um, I'd be curious to hear a little bit more about that.

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What are you not saying?

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Yeah, good.

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I'm not saying.

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Well, it's uncircumcised, but I mean, it's more nicely said by saying blocked lips. You know, he was a stutterer, etc.

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But I always found that particular use of that word there

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to be interesting.

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Mm-hmm, absolutely.

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Yep. So, just Adam…

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what that is, what tongue-tied is. It's when the piece of flesh below the tongue.

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It's not as separate between the tongue and the lower part of one's mouth. That is tongue-tied. It's like a real thing.

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Right, so blocked lips were…

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So, uncircumcised means not… not cut. They cut it on children these days.

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Mm-hmm.

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Right?

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Right, sometimes this is… this is rendered as he's tongue-tied, or…

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Um, that, that uncircumcised lips.

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kept from the Hebrew…

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We allow, um, people, uh, is, is literally for skin.

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Which begs the question of what's the what here? Yep.

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Maybe into that.

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Yep. What else?

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And then the other Hebrew word, could you pronounce that?

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Spot time! Spot time!

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Same, lips.

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The aim is just plural.

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As an Adonai Tiftaq, God opened my lips, that my mouth may declare your praise.

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Alright, so we've, we've landed on our alfa time. What else?

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is interesting to us here.

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Shortness of spirit, kotsaruach.

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I like shortness of spirit.

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That's a good one to highlight.

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I'm wondering if the… Circumcised.

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Or uncircumcised lips has to do with. A level of consciousness.

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Similar to shortness of spirit. I wasn't ready to… As he expressed his apprehension.

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Um, he might not have been ready in a spiritual way to.

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Beak and be… Um, you know, to be communicating with the people.

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About what God is offering us at that time.

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So is there some connection between shortness of spirit,

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Blocked lips and feeling unable to say what needs to be said.

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keep going.

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Isn't this the first time that, uh…

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Yes.

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God gets angry.

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So you kind of… you kind of lets, uh, Moses have it a little bit when he's like, hey, I'm not the guy for this.

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Isn't… isn't this the…

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That was last week's tomorrow portion. Yup.

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And God essentially just says, shut up, Moses, and somebody else shut.

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I have given you a brother, I have given you miracles, I have told you I will be with you.

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Lord is one shot up, go.

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Was God angry?

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Well, do…

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Do we continue to see that?

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Ah, sorry, James.

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with the way he's thinking of the Israelites at this point, since they're…

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being non-responsive, or are we going to see more of the…

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that has said a little bit more of an understanding of mercy and so forth on his part here.

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items? Great question.

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So, so how, how will God respond?

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to the fact that the Israelites can't hear. That's part of what I hear you asking, is God gonna respond with mercy or with strictness?

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to the fact that perhaps our ears are blocked.

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Or it doesn't tell us.

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Yeah, which side… which side of that is he gonna fall on, is the question.

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God does not respond to the fact that

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our ancestors couldn't hear.

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Not yet.

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So, I think that relates to how God is introducing.

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God's self to motion. And El Shaddai was how he… Or God self-introduced to Abraham Naslach, and Yaaku.

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I think we learned that the dye means. The one who nourishes or provides, kind of, what we need as a.

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Beautiful.

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springboard to go forth. And now, it's Yudhave.

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Sorry. I will be where I will be.

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So, to me, that's a more… Um, fluid presence and relationships.

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And that we also have to be who we will be in order to take this journey.

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Beautiful. I love that. I also want to lift up in the chat that point that Ruach also means breath.

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How can you concentrate or hear anything if you can't breathe?

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Mm.

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Right, so is this a… this could be both a spiritual shortness of spirit and a literal… like, literally, I can't breathe.

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Corinne has a hand up.

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Yeah.

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It'sak. But it makes him known on the new name.

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Which… and it kind of really gives them orders to execute, you know, you don't have the choice but to do what you're told.

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is a god of kind of mighty, and… a bit overpowering, and he.

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So this name… this name seems to come with…

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insist on things being done.

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Instructions.

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And Elma's noting that… seems to say that Yod-Heh-Vave did not appear in the Yitzkak and Yaakov stories. Tell me about that.

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Mm-hmm.

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Right, that in the… so…

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One way to read all of this, of course, is that

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Torah was written over a long period of time by a variety of people,

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And the names we used for God shifted over time, so…

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Maybe El Shaddai is the oldest, is one of the oldest names, it's in the oldest parts of the text.

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But of course, spiritually, we understand it

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not only as these different names come at different historical moments, but that they tell us something about the nature of God and how God… how we related to God or understood God.

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And the name El Shaddai

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appeared previously, but Yod-Heh-Vav-Heh only starts appearing now.

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Rachel, I see your hand.

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Yes, I find it interesting to find the roots.

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of the Shema somehow in here. And, um… Like, here… the hearing, and I am Yudhave, your God, and.

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Ooh…

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Just wondering about the, the prayer liturgy.

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Oh, I love that. They did not hear Moshe in the sense of Shema, of…

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Our central commandment to hear.

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that God is one.

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Maybe they couldn't hear that.

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Mm-hmm.

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And God declares who He is. Uh, also the echoing of the Shema.

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Beautiful, right? We're getting a little highlight box on…

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Ah, great.

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on Shamu, that they did not hear, that's that same word as Shema.

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Thank you.

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James points out they don't have any of that yet, though, which is, of course, true, but our sages say there's no before and after in Torah, so maybe in some cosmic sense,

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This is pointing us to that.

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No. Yeah, this… I don't say they have the Shema, you know, liturgy, but that is part that the Shema liturgy is found here, is what I was saying, yeah.

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Beautiful.

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I'm seeing hearts popping up on screen, by the way.

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What else?

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Would one of the rabbis just read the Hebrew of, I will redeem you with an outstretched arm.

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And by great judgment. It's very poetic in English, but I would love to hear the Hebrew.

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We'll be 15 to the loop.

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Thank you.

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And when I do it in my family, it is usually, um, a game show host voice.

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Mm-hmm.

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With awesome power, with signs and wands.

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There's…

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I also want to lift up in the chat, if you remember George Floyd when being murdered by that policeman kneeling on his neck, said, I can't breathe.

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I can't breathe.

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Perhaps he, like in the Parsha, is referring to the collective shortness of breath

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that paralyzes many people in the face of extremes.

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So I'm hearing here both a physical

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I can't breathe, something is constricting my throat, and also a spiritual I-can't-breathe,

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the world is too much.

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Or, in other words, trauma response.

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Right, and certainly the children of Israel

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are in a place of trauma.

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After however many hundreds of years it's been, some sources say 200, some say 400,

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Whatever it is, it's been generations of trauma.

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Delia, I see your hand.

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Um, yeah, because then George Floyd said, I want my mother.

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And El Shaddie as. The nurturing aspect.

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So there's something very…

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deep and human here about

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kind of puts it together, yeah.

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sort of returning to first yearnings in times of trauma and…

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suffering, is we need to breathe, and we yearn for that…

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that mother-ness, whether that's one's actual mother or El Shaddai, or the source of all that nourishes us.

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However, we experience that.

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Oh.

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Okay.

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And excuse me, my iPad has turned around again, and you're looking at my room instead of me, so I don't know how to change that.

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Hello Delius Room, it's fine, we know you're there.

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Hello. Okay. Okay, fine.

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What else?

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In 8 to 9? I'm just wondering about the word swore.

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Yeah. It's even better than that.

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It's even better than that.

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I swore to give to Avraham.

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availability. I will cause you to become.

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Meaning that will bring, except you,

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Y'all…

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And, uh, it's to the land, Ashan.

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Now, here we go.

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Nasati et Yadi.

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I raised my hand.

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I lifted my hand as in taking an oath.

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This is how Hebrews says the word swear.

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Which, if you're thinking of, like, taking an oath in court, could you imagine God taking an oath in court?

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So, is the…

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And tell the truth, the little truth, and nothing but the…

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I, God, do you solemnly swear…

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Right, so help me.

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So, help me myself.

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Yeah. But that seems to be what it's saying here.

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So it's made even firmer, right? Because the et… He's on the oath.

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Yeah.

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I raised at my hand.

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raised direct object marker by hand.

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So many cool comments.

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This is a pretty rich page.

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What else?

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We can add the inheritance there.

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So what do I want to say about inheritance?

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It continues to say all the people and their children.

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So, it's…

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Denoting that for all generations, when you added. Inheritance here.

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So I'm your people now and forevermore. Even though I kind of left you alone for a while and let you suffer so much.

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That's quite a theological statement. Were they alone.

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We'll be alone when we suffer.

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Certainly feels like it.

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So do we sometimes.

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Well, they forgot, right? Not only did Pharaoh not know Joseph.

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Yeah.

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Okay, but we're related to the story here now, Rabbi.

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Yeah…

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That is correct.

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If this was just a short story, I found myself, and I say that with all due respect, I was.

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wondering what was the motivation for the timing of God to intervene?

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I get what… how much suffering. specific event, and I guess we'll never know that.

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That's a great question, though.

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But it's just… kind of a gap, like, why… why now? Why not previous? Why not later?

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There is a wonderful teaching about it, and I want to very…

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quickly bring it.

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It's just gonna take me 60 seconds or so to grab it.

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The question you are asking.

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is not.

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The first time it has been asked.

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I will note that one of the Torah poems I worked on this week arose out of the end of verse 5 here. I remembered my covenant.

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As if God could forget?

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What does that mean?

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everybody see this piece of…

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Safaria.

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Yes, it is now in front of us.

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Well,

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Okay. This is immediate.

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after Moses is floated downriver, grows up,

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kill the slave, runs away.

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and has two kids.

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Long time after that.

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the King of Egypt died.

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And they groaned. The children of Israel groaned.

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From their bondage, and they cried out.

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Is it the Sloan arriving, Rachel?

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I think…

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The slalomer rabbi?

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Yes, that's the slronomer.

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Islamore Revi asked your question.

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Amy and said this.

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Why now? Because the children of Israel grew.

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We cried out.

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cried out. Until that moment.

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There were so few fused to their own…

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Suffering.

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that there was no liberating them.

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The second they started to individuate from their suffering just enough to cry out from it.

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That's when God begins to reach in.

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Which means when we suffer,

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And that…

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And we swallow our suffering.

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We are preventing our own redemption.

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Which is huge.

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This reminds me of a…

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Now, bear in mind that redemption can mean a whole lot of different things, and it doesn't always mean the great signs and wonders.

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But the idea that the first step in our

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being redeemed from our suffering is when we cry out.

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That's what sparks the cosmic shift

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and the Holy One of blessing.

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to me is profoundly powerful.

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the people stand up in protest.

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Say again.

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James and I had this discussion. Um, James and I had this disco… James and I had this discussion a little bit the other day about.

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Uh-huh.

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God helps those who help themselves. It's like, what is that impetus? And.

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Why is it us really. doing that, or the shechina.

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expressing itself.

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Yeah…

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Ilma's noting in the chat, the first step in healing is always admitting you have a problem.

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Yup, yup, yup. And immediately after that was the Journey Bush. Boom.

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Yes.

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So, does your babe? And do, you know, hey.

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And El Shaddai. Mark, uh… an evolution.

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Well, we're gonna get to that.

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And… God… to rise to the.

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the moment of the people crying out. And what's the difference? Is there anything in the letters or.

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Right. Is there an evolution in God? Is there an evolution in our capacity?

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Um… And in the name… in the name of God, because there's so many names.

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And do those names morph? Based on the context of the.

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Hmm?

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relationship in the covenant. And what is concealed and revealed.

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And hence, what is able to. be heard and seen.

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Yep.

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Earth's floating up. Delia's got a hand also.

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Yeah.

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And then Cheryl.

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Thank you. Um, this fits right in. Thank you, Cheryl. Um… Because… then I am is a name of God.

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And when we say I am. something not so fun.

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We're not separating, but if we… we're actually kind of… blasphemy the name of God, if I say, I'm terrible.

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Um, but if I'd say I feel terrible. Then we've made that separation.

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So that we can… so it's like crying out. We've made this separation.

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Yep.

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Yep, I want to remind us that

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to be able to start the healing.

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is not quite Hebraically

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What was said at the burning bush.

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It was more… eh, yeah.

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I will be. It's…

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be what I will be.

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Futuri change.

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Hmm…

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Right? But your point is well taken.

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You know, Maimonides often taught

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Because I was there.

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We can never, in his Fredo platonic, understand it.

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of how existence in God work.

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You can never know God directly.

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We can only know God.

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or describe God.

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But God is not, because to define God by X,

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is to put a box around God.

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Limit.

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Right? This theology is apophatic.

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to use the jargon. And so you…

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would have to say, God is not purple.

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God is not chocolatey.

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I think that's very much in line with what Julier is saying here. The second you…

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Think what Adam was doing in the garden.

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I'm giving it to you, and I'm gonna kick you, and I'm gonna name you. I'm labeling you, I'm…

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title and relationship based on what I see.

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I am what I want.

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need for two weeks, our ancestor walked through the sea.

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And they say, Adonai Ishmilchama.

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And part of their song of the sea, God is a man of war.

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Not a favorite appellation for many of us.

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But they needed a warrior. They saw a warrior.

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So, is that one of the…

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70 faces of God, so to speak.

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Sure.

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God is more than all.

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Word of God.

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which is more title than Maine.

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As Cheryl, Deborah, and then I think we're gonna jump into text.

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So… Another conversation that we were having.

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Um… was about one… A good teacher.

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And however that comes to be. teaches to the level of the student.

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And one statement, even one statement, will be heard differently.

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By everyone in the room at the level of their capacity.

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And I feel that. I'm very drawn to these different names of God, also as how they may be.

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descriptive of various sepheroids. Um, and therefore aspects.

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And so, when I see El Shaddai or Yudhave, it reminds me that.

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We, as a people. were at, um, you know, not just individually at a certain level, but you are.

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Um, as a group at a certain level as well.

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And so, God gave us. what we could take in at the time.

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Based on what he… As… saying he, but I don't really mean he, you know what I mean.

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Um… what it… what we are able to grok at the time.

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And so… I love that Jude Vavhe.

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is what is given at this time. Because… It means that… as a people, an entire.

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spiritual shift must occur. So that that can be taken in.

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As happens… You know, later with… Mount Sinai and flipping over and coming above, and then, no, no, we can't do it.

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You do it. Um… But I love this. I love… the whole concept that.

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You know, and as you can tell from us and what we contribute, and what each of us see.

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Also, just so much brings that out in me.

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One of the reasons that Midrash is so…

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This falls spiritually.

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The joy, the joy in me.

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And so to congregants for rabbis, I bet Rabbi Rachel's had this experience.

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How many times have we given a sermon or a talk?

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And different people come to us having heard different things, and some of you hear things that are so much smaller than we are.

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Yep, for sure.

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Yeah, did I have one last comment. Um, James has written something very cool in the chat box.

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I'm gonna echo what Cheryl said. I was really thinking the same thing.

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you know, when you first started reading a few…

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That made me think of the best

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thing that made me think that…

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This guy is differentiated.

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to different students. They always say when

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is ready, the teacher will appear.

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This name reflects what…

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These people need most emphasis.

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Beautiful.

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Once again, y'all have prefigured some of what we have provided.

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Um… got me, Rachel, I'm gonna grab this one, and you'll take the next.

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Two. Yofi?

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So, if you look in many translations of Exodus 6,

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You will not see it the way we have translated it.

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You will see…

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But my name, Yudhavante, I did not make known to them.

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As opposed to, I was not made known to them.

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What's the difference between I did not make myself known, and I was not made known?

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Yes, I agree.

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Oh, something… oh.

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For those of us who…

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Is something else acting?

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Something else acting? That sounds like a causative.

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There's something going on here, yeah, Debra?

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Is that a causative?

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I mean, again, maybe it reflects the idea that

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you know, if I speak to somebody who doesn't speak English,

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There just… it doesn't matter how long I talk.

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They're not gonna get what they need from me.

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If I'm revealing to you what I know…

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But I know you can…

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Yeah.

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It will be…

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Right. If you are taking the Hebrew series with me on Liturgy,

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You've come to know that the letterman…

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In front of a group could well mean something.

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As if not, I did not make myself, but I was not made known.

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The can was kicked.

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Mistakes were made.

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And Rossi grabs this.

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It is not written. I did not make myself known.

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And therefore, all you in this translations that say that.

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I'm totally wrong.

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Not even close.

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But rather, I was not made known.

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Make God known. How do we know God? It begs the question.

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How do we know God?

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experience through Iris raising her hand,

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I received unmuting herself, delicious.

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Thank you. So, I think that. Has a connotation or a heartfeltness of.

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what I would need to do in order to really know.

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God, like, I… I did not make myself known as in, I didn't tell you everything you need to know, it's.

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And I think that's part of… The meanings of God that.

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It says what people need at that moment, and I think there's also a seed for the future.

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in that, like, an energy of. participation and flow that we.

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As individuals have to also. be part of it.

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Yeah. So to Rashi…

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It was this.

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I was not recognized.

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ancestors, by offering

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and that's by my attribute of truth.

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Truth is what we associate with Adonai. Adonai!

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The truth is law. Truth of God's words is a little bit of, uh…

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Hmm.

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the coding I need to do here. Because promises to them I did not fulfill in their lifetimes.

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God did not tell Avraham or Yitzvak, or Yaakov

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I am going to liberate you.

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A big promise that God made to Avram all the way back when

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was your descendants will be enslaved in a land not their own.

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And I will liberate them.

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So, Avra, me, it's talking album didn't have a way to know

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by the quality of

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truth of fulfilling a promise.

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Not quite.

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These folks be able to see Yudhave as the one who keeps a promise?

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begs a question.

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How often do we…

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We need God to keep a promise to us.

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what happens.

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If we feel that God does not keep that promise.

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If we are so dependent on that,

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trust. And therefore, our theology needs to change.

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Because sometimes the answer is no.

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And sometimes the answer is silence. And sometimes the answer is yes, but not that way.

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And sometimes the answer is, what did you say?

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And sometimes the answer is…

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Wait, was that in my hand?

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This quality of…

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to find fulfillment.

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is very direct in the book of Exodus.

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And God does this, and God does that.

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A little bit less so now.

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remain, much less so for all Romitzlak and Yaakov.

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So when we say Yud-He Valde…

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There's that element.

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a fulfillment.

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Not just becomingness.

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fulfillment.

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And it may push some of our buttons.

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And those button pushings become the good stuff.

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looking to God to fulfill.

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you're looking to God to fulfill.

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What does fulfillment look like?

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So you got that.

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Then there's the Sporno. Any one of these is enough for a hole, like…

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The smart elk.

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Who wants it?

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someone hasn't had a chance to read, maybe.

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I'm gonna try to move through these.

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Yeah, Rachel, go ahead.

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By such an appearance. By such an appearance.

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Until now, I never needed to change nature. for their sake.

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Until now, I never needed to change nature for their sake.

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It would have been unseemly. Now, it was appropriate to make myself known to their descendants.

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in ways they could not receive from their ancestors.

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For the sake of establishing them. Through me, as a nation, and thereby to redeem them.

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If you want to make a splash.

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If you want everybody to see you and have a collective experience of

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This is my God.

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You're gonna have to do something so big.

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That it could never be attributed to nature.

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All of that's just the east wind.

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Oh, you know, that's just flies, what do you want?

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In misunderstanding, God did not need to create a whole people yet.

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Only now does God need to create a whole people by their collective experience of something so big they could only say, this is my God.

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They could not have learned of this God.

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Through their ancestors.com, etc.,

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Because there were no big things.

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They experience God.

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in different ways, but it wasn't all this awesome power. We shined, then wonders.

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That's what made a people of people.

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Their collective experience of liberation from bondage there.

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We see splitting of all of that.

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So I was not made known to them.

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Number two.

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Here's number 3. I'll take us through this one quickly.

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Jakko.

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God's voice didn't shake up the world, it was the still small voice.

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It was quiet. There was no need for the people of their generation to hear.

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All the other prophets, starting with Moses. Think Moses, think Sinai. Think the prophets after them who would speak for God, saying, God says,

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God says.

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The holy blessed one spoke with the later prophets, starting with Moses, God's voice shut the world.

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As in, from Shabbat Psalm, Psalm 29,

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God's voice breaks the cedars.

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How many of us have ever heard…

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a tree to God, or the holy, or whatever.

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A still small voice.

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figuratively.

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Yeah, a lot of us. How many of us have heard God?

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Mm-hmm.

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Talking to a whole big group of people with a megaphone.

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Rachel! Buzzles.

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Okay, wait, wait, are you saying spoke to people with a megaphone.

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Luckily bitty, not corny bitty, my children have defeated me from Talmud.

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And they heard it? Or did it… and they didn't hear it, because I think there's…

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You know? Yeah!

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I mean, look what we're going through. I mean… century after century after century, I just was at, you know, the.

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The Egypt Divine Show several times at the Met. I mean, it's just, it's so ancient, this… Voice.

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But it's still a little different, you know?

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I would imagine that if God

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wanted to grab a megaphone and ensure that we be heard.

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that God be heard.

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to what… there's a little… something different going on here.

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relative to what perhaps once was in the days of the prophets.

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Marcy, and then Shmograma.

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Oh, I think that one of the things that God says also is weight.

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You know? And I'm still back in the park.

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Oh, there's this, uh… suggestion that something is.

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causing things that's not God, that's. Above God, what's that?

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This is where the rabbis lean in and go.

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Yeah, I'm not.

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Yeah, because it's saying… Okay, you get… I get this image of… okay, I… I caused you not to see me.

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But God's standing behind a curtain. and decided to stand behind the curtain.

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But then, there's the implication. That something else caused God not to be seen.

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That wasn't God. It's not just the language, or.

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Is, is that. a suggestion, or…

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The language?

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I think what you're doing is droshing it.

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And that's delightful.

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I don't think so. No, I, um, there's something in my memory and I might be able to pull it out that.

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In the grammar, in the… beginning of bere sheet.

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That's so hard. So hard, but in Rey sheets and book.

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That… that intimates that there was something beyond. God, and I… Thank you.

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racing in the beginning, in…

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Reishi is called kochmah in

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That's spiraling.

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wisdom by rock.

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created Elohim.

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Right. Right, so that's what I think Marcia is alluding to.

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Yeah, and that, uh… The name… is… Like, there's that revelation and concealment.

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But, like I said. One of them is, like, God walking behind a curtain so you can't see.

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And the other is… something else acting.

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So that God is not known.

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I'm gonna park that, and let's see if we can bring it back.

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During the after session.

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Because I… there's something really deep here, but it's gonna…

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push out everything else, I think.

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rabbit holes, rabbit holes, right.

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It's just one of those rabbi holes.

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Here's another one for Small Rabba.

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Why did God reveal

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I'm paying to Moses.

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Short answer, because Moshe asked.

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people, Moshe said, are gonna ask.

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Who is it that sent you?

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What shall I tell them?

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Somebody else asked after who Don is. Moshe asked after who God is.

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If we ask who God is, maybe we'll get an answer.

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vegetable rama.

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Zohar.

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All for us to read later, so all of this about Don did not make…

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God self-know, God. God was not made known, passive voices, that was all that.

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Come and see, said Rav Shimon.

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Fina did not move from Ava.

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I mean to say, Shekhina always was with Avram.

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So all times, the Holy Blessed One was speaking with Him.

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Rebelazar said,

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And I think more than one, if you grabbed this,

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Sharina spoke to him, sure.

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But the whole Blessed One revealed only at his level.

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at his level, what he was able to grok at the time.

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As in, from our text.

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I appeared to…

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I appear to cover Mitsakiakov as El Shanai.

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to them. To them.

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To them, literally, to them exactly, I appeared.

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to them. I was El Shanai.

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They were only able to see me as El Shaddai.

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Yaakov says, if you…

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Take me where I'm going, and you bring me back safely, and you give me food and clothing and all the things, then you'll be my god.

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And I'll pay your taxes.

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If he gets what he needs.

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That's different from God's beingness and becomingness.

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That's what Moshe gets now.

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And that's what the people are about to get.

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So, right here, from the very beginning, there's something important.

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about our relationship with divinity.

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Where are we in it? How do we ask?

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No, what are we looking for?

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And what are we ready to receive or to hear?

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And that gets us to this next place in…

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Yeah, Cheryl wants to jump in, and then we're gonna do Katar Ruch.

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Here, okay, Carol, and then we'll move on.

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Um, very quickly, I… I was having a hard time with the word redeem, that.

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God would redeem us. Come to us. To redeem us, as if we had done something wrong.

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And so, um, so I actually had to look it up and be reminded of the other.

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Yeah, I don't understand redeem to mean that we screwed up.

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Um, definition.

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Okay, so that was the thing. I went back and I looked up Redeem just now, because I was having a hard time with that, to redeem.

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Like, to redeem from something. Well, you can also, like, redeem a savings bond, right?

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were being cashed in.

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We're being taken back.

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It's to take back. to take… well, in a way, right, to… to take back, to remind us.

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To make better of.

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to be reminded, to be remembered, to be redeemed.

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Yeah, how do I redeem the suffering? Can I make something good of it? Can I turn lemons into lemonade?

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But remember also that in the Amida, we name God as Ga'al Yisrael, Redeemer of Israel.

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So this is one of our liturgy's names for what God is to us, for us.

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Yes.

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Which is that God redeemed.

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So, what was your definition of redeem?

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lifts, transforms us, and lifts us out of our suffering.

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to me, it's a spiritual move.

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I don't know if transformation came up at all in a definition of redeem.

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But look at me, right? Mihamocha!

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is our bracha for God, who redeems us, who brings us through the sea.

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Which we will get to more in two weeks, so hold that thought. James, I see your hand…

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But it's also fulfill or carry out a pledge or a promise. So that's the piece.

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Yeah.

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You know, because the… Thank you, I just needed to toss that out.

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Thank you.

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Thank you. James, I see your hand, and then we're going to look at what it means to have constricted breath.

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So, another way of looking at the word redeem

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is almost like the word reclaim.

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Um, he is redeeming the people, he's taking them back.

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Uh, they've…

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Well, loosely saying it. They've been taken by Egypt.

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And he is redeeming them, he is taking them back.

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from Egypt, back from bondage, back from their…

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we'll call it errant ways and so forth. He's bringing them back into the covenant along with himself.

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as he's honoring the covenant, as kinsmen,

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Ga'al is… it's, it's kinsmen in this case.

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Um, so in that sense, Redeem is basically…

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seeing something being held wrongfully,

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And bringing it back, redeeming its status, its… yeah.

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Yeah.

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burning it. It's… it's… it's like the opposite move to tshuva. We turn away, and God turns to… there's a… there's a reciprocity in it.

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Is what I hear you say.

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Yeah, I'm gonna repeat one thing James said, and I hope it'll stay with us for the rest of our lives, and then…

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We'll do shortness of spirit.

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God took us out of Egypt. You're not theirs.

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your mind. You're not theirs.

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We do not belong to…

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Pharaoh, our taskmasters, are constrictions, our suffering.

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In a sense, we belong to something much greater.

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Alright, so in our Torah text, we have Moshe spoke to the children of Israel, and they could not hear him.

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On account of Kotser Ruach, shortness of spirit, or shortness of breath,

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And Avodakasha, their hard labor.

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So Rashi comes to say, well, what is it… shortness of spirit, what does that mean?

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Well, if one is in a narrow place, if one is in anguish,

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You can't breathe. You can't lengthen your breath.

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Think about how physically true that is. When we are in places of tight, deep constriction.

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We literally can't breathe.

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And because breath is spirit, there's something spiritual, not just physical.

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Sforno says, well, not just that they couldn't breathe,

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They couldn't believe that it could get better.

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And so their heart couldn't understand.

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When we are in really tight straights, sometimes we can't even imagine

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That things will ever be different.

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And the heart can't know

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The heart can't get it. It's gonna be like this always.

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This is my life now.

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And I'm seeing some heads nodding and some thumbs floating up, so I'm… I'm…

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Getting the sense that others have had this experience, too.

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Ibn Ezra comes along to say, well, it really means they couldn't hear or even turn their ears toward his words because their spirits were impatient.

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Due to the length of exile and the hard labor.

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So, they were being worked so hard that they didn't have patience to think about better.

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Then we get the Ramba, and somebody want to give us the Ramban?

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From shortness of spirit and from hard labor. It was not that they didn't believe in God and God's prophet.

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They paid no attention at all from shortness of spirit.

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Like one whose soul is aggrieved in one's misery.

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And doesn't want to live another moment in one's suffering.

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Though they know that later it will be relieved.

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Their shortness of spirit was fear that Pharaoh would murder them by sword.

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as their officers said to Moshe.

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Some of this was fear that they were literally going to be attacked and killed.

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And all reality telepopes into that sense of suffering, and even if you know in theory, that life could be better later,

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You don't even want to live long enough to find out.

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And this is, of course, not just a personal overwhelm

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but a communal overwhelm, a national overwhelm.

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Which I'm seeing in the chat, some folks…

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are feeling a resonance with.

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And that is really important. That…

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Our journey from bondage to liberation is not phrased only in the individual

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as potent as that is, and, you know, how do we know the world except through our own experience of it?

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That story tells us something more.

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It is phrased in the collective vague couldn't hear.

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They're gonna wanna know the public signs, the signs and wonders.

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All of this, it's very public.

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It means that the journey of army is called block of Yosef,

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Kind of words.

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This is different.

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And we tell that story every year for reasons.

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And this is not to take… oh, there, this is not to take away from any sense that this might resonate for us as individuals.

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Um, I… you know, when I have been in deep grief or deep depression,

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I have had that feeling of my spirit is so short, I cannot imagine things getting better.

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Right? I imagine many of us have.

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And this is about a collective

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feeling that way, which is…

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you know, it's microcosm and macrocosm, but it's also something a little different.

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than just what we ourselves endure.

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Here comes Rabbi Sheffa Gold. Would someone like to read what Sheffa has to say?

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At the center of our liturgy is the prayer that says, listen, Shema.

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Listening is the first step in the process of liberation.

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I ever reveals to us 2 main obstacles to listening.

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And here are spiritual challenge is laid out. The first challenge to listening is shortness of spirit.

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This is sometimes translated as impatience. The process of liberation requires great patience and discipline.

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To take the small, necessary steps that would not necessarily relieve our immediate pain.

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Resolute patience is required. To fully rest in the present moment as it is.

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This full acceptance of what is awakens the power of our presence.

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And allows the process of transformation to unfold. Here is the paradox.

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One must be… must patiently be. In order to become.

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The spiritual challenge of this Torah portion is to keep the heart open in the face of prolonged suffering, and to let the seeds of freedom.

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grow in the darkness.

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process of transformation. This might be that word, redemption that we were struggling with earlier.

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That's another way to understand redemption.

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is this process of transformation.

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And Rabbi Shifa is teaching us that our challenge

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is to keep the heart open when we are suffering.

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So that the seeds of something different can grow.

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Amy, I see your hand.

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Mmm…

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It seems developmental to me. That, um, you need to stretch yourself, that they needed to stretch themselves.

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In faith, they needed to exert themselves that. Um, imploring God wasn't going to be.

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For lack of a better term, coming to me like a vending machine thing.

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I'll put in my coin, and you'll give me a prize.

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It wasn't. Please rescue us and. Bam, that there's gotta be… Yeah, yeah.

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Tonya Ruttenberg, God is not a gumball machine.

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God is not a vending machine.

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Beautiful. I also want to uplift in the chat the little poem that James has just written.

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Trauma, hopelessness of the one of the many, it is a contagion, and God is the only antidote. Very powerful.

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Yeah. Yeah, that's why I want to jump in here, if I may, because again, this is really…

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You may.

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asking us some profound spiritual questions.

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It's really easy to read about this.

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Many of us.

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can do this in 2020, hindsight.

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But find it a little more difficult to do in real time.

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We're suffering.

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This is a springboard for transformation.

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Another freakin' growth opportunity, as they say.

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So let's be in that space for a moment.

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You know, and some of us need to pretend a little bit less than some others, but…

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In that case of Kutzerbachwin, that place of shortened spirit.

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What does it take?

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To make space for the possibility that it really is incubating something, or at least it could.

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No one celebrates their suffering. Yay, suffering!

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I hate winter.

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Can't stand it. It is about as Kutzer Ruach as physical life gets for me.

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I know it's incubating spring.

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I know.

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This is the longest 18 inches in the world.

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Between head and heart.

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How do I convince myself? Really convince myself?

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And actually, this is necessary.

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productive, and to feel that productivity,

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The possibility of becoming this within the suffering, within the ketzer Ruch.

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Otherwise, it's just, uh, as Marcy would put it,

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Wait!

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Wait!

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It's a real question, France.

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I see a lot of hate.

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Because I think we're about to get to that when we turn the page. I'm just curious what's in the room.

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Well, we have to be, like. Um… Nachlan?

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I mean, he didn't… I don't know how much he was thinking.

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But his feet sure did move. You know what I mean?

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he just went in, and sometimes you have to.

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Keep going.

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Just act. Before the thought… settles and gels. I mean.

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I was having this major anxiety attack, and I'm like.

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Oh, Because I hate Dutch. And so I start talking to myself.

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Okay, you're… you're having an anxiety attack. It's gonna go away, get in the car, it will calm you down.

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and just drive to your doctor's appointment, doctor. they're going to… if you're really a mess, they're gonna help you.

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And I've learned how to. be in the midst of that meltdown.

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And just… Keep going anyway, and that's a knock-mom thing to do.

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Yeah.

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We will do when we were here. We are so accustomed to privileging our thoughts and privileging our emotions.

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emotions, and sometimes our thoughts and our emotions.

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Not just in a loop of feedback, a feedback loop.

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Of stuckness, of suffering, of storytelling, about the storytelling.

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And sometimes…

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And feelings are not facts, and sometimes we have to be like Nachshon and just walk into the sea.

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And sometimes you have to…

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Even if we're not feeling it.

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And that's why Jewish life privileges.

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doing. Sometimes we do, and then

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We'll get it and learn from the outside in.

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You're gonna believe you're lying eyes.

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I see a pile of hands.

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Deanna, then Delia.

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teased today.

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Um…

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Well, speaking from my own experience, I'll say

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two things that I do in these situations of suffering.

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One, and they come from other traditions than Judaism.

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Um…

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One is, this is where deep mindfulness comes in for me, because…

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I know, if I can stop for a minute and… or maybe longer than a minute, it can take a while.

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And understand that the suffering is coming from my thoughts.

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Mm-hmm.

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If I can get into here, and centered in… deep inside myself, where I'm quiet,

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I'm safe.

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I mean, I have a privileged life, so I'm safe. That's part of it. You know, I'm not under direct threat.

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But also, the things that make… that caused my suffering are thoughts, and I'm very aware of that, and that just comes from years and years and years and years of Buddhist practice.

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Um…

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So that's one thing, and I love Chef Agold's teachings. Um, I've been following her for a long time, and…

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And I feel that that's what she's talking about here.

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Yeah.

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to fully rest in the present moment as is, because if you can do that…

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similar to what Marsha just described, getting in the car, knowing that that's gonna…

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That it's gonna pass.

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Um…

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That can be a calming mechanism.

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The other thing for me, and this comes from my practices in the Mexican Danza de la Luna, which is

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Aztec-based.

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is I have learned…

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that if I turn toward whatever the source of darkness is in me,

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And can feel…

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gratitude for it, genuine gratitude. I don't mean, like, just mouthing the words, thank you, God.

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I mean, really…

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Oh, oh my god.

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Thank you for showing me this thing that I'm doing that is a repetitious pattern from childhood and trauma.

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And it is causing my suffering. Thank you for illuminating that in me.

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In the midst of the suffering,

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If I can feel that gratitude,

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It shifts everything.

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And it can shift everything rather quickly.

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Thank you.

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But I can't be doing it just in order to get the shift. I have to be doing it

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Just to be grateful.

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Thank you.

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I don't know if that makes sense, but I've had this experience.

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Absolutely does.

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Many times.

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do it just to do it for its own sake.

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Yeah.

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Yeah, Delia, is it on this?

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Alright, I get sore.

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It is, one thing. Um, it's short. It's, um, move.

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you know, get your body moving. When you get to that place, but also, I'm keeping an emotional journal. When I'm physically.

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have a problem, I have no problem being patient.

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When I'm emotionally off, I get into that moment, it's never going to change.

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I look at my everyday, just a few words. Oh, it did change. Oh, it did change, and it gives me that perspective.

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Beautiful.

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Thank you.

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Would someone like to read for us the words of Rabbi Sandra Lawson?

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And we promise we did not choose this week's Torah portion.

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The Torah portion is what it is, we just…

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we're just reading the… we just read the cards, man.

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God speaks to Moses with words of hope and liberation.

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But when Moses brings this message to the Israelites.

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The Torah tells us they cannot hear him. Because of Kotzer Ruach.

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a short enough of breath. a constricted spirit.

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That matters this week. Code Ser Ruach is what happens when trauma settles into the body.

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It's the tightness of the chest when we learn a synagogue has been destroyed by fire.

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It's a shallow breath that comes with shock, grief, fear, and anger compressed together.

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In this Torah portion, God meets the Israelites exactly where they are, and says, I hear you're groaning.

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I see your pain. I know.

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responses to…

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Sandra Lawson.

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Cheryl, I see your hand.

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Um, you're making a…

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Right, yup, 100%.

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feeling this.

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Just, like, show of hands. Anybody else in the room for who this is resonating this week?

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Yeah. Yeah.

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Oh, I didn't mean to put my hand up. The… I raised my actual hand, and the zoom camera made my hand go up.

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How do I make it stop? Lower hand.

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So, this is… I think she's speaking for…

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all of us.

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And she wrote it, of course, for circumstances happening.

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Right now, this is the year 2026, she wrote.

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So…

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Yes.

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Right now.

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And it's never just right now, it's also then.

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Next up, the root of Kotzer. I'm going to take us quickly through this one so we can get to the Aaron Lieb smokler and the Svanimet.

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The root of kotzer can mean to be shortened, that's how we usually understand it, shortness of spirit.

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But it can also mean to reap,

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to harvest, to join together.

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And a well-known use of it with that meaning is in Psalm 126.

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Those who sow in tears shall reap with songs of joy.

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In the single, seeming, single, seemingly simple verse, we learn of the possibility to turn Kotze Ruach, diminished spirit,

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into Rina Yiktzoru's songs reaped in joy.

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from a soul that feels short,

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into a sense of hope and promise.

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Rabbi Rachel brought me this text saying,

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We should have this, too.

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look what I just found!

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I think… I think I wrote in…

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The sacred Google comments slides and thing that we have.

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Those who sow in the single, seemingly simple verse, which is a very lovely verse.

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We learned of the possibility to turn cuts are wealth intermediate to them.

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I think…

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Rabbi Cohen does not tell us.

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Yeah.

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Some of this is here.

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By doing, with deep mindfulness.

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to see that the Kotza Ruach is not…

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just it. And the community.

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the terrorianism of Judaism.

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Feels very important now, because sometimes I'm not going to be able to do it.

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But maybe one of us is.

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And we can bring you along.

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And you grabbed me by the arm, and you force me.

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If it… if it reaches that point.

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In collective committee, we have a responsibility.

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Rights Webnacht.

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Do not let someone so wallow in it for so long that they become entrapped by it.

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We have to help each other out.

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and become of Qzar Muach.

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Right.

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Right? It's one verse, so in tears reap in joy.

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Night falls, morning…

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arises. The falling of night is the beginning of the journey to dawn.

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The sewing in tears can be the beginning of the reaping in joy.

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Whereas, uh, some of you may remember,

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or if you took our high holiday prep series,

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Don't get up!

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Yep.

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It is one moon.

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Fall down, get up!

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I have to learn that, because often we see them as two, and we forget, and…

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Easier said than done, much easier said than done.

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Do you want to take us through this one? Because it goes into the next page of teachings that we've got.

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Yes, yeah. So let's… let's have 3 people read.

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It's a longer passage, but it's worth it. She is excerpting

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And explaining from the spot that Natalie started.

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Moses is to bring a message of salvation to a downtrodden people, promising them that God will finally deliver them.

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After hundreds of years of slavery, generations of oppression and trauma, redemption is nigh.

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But the people could not hear it. The Israelites were too deeply mired in their pain of the moment to take in future-oriented promises.

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They could not fathom a reality other than the one that they and their grandparents and their grandparents inhabited.

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And so they blocked out even mention of an alternative. They simply could not metabolize what seemed so flagrantly false.

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You'll be liberated. Hmm, dear.

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While Torah records that Moses was a man of blocked lips,

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Moses could not speak because the people could not hear.

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That is, he could not communicate with a people so very shut down and unavailable to his messaging.

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With no a priori buy-in,

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No openness to taking in new things.

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Moses, the harbinger of hope,

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was effectively silenced.

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Exile is not a place. It is a condition of being in which we are closed down.

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Shut off. Unable to receive. Unable to activate our faculties of imagination.

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It is a state of being stuck. Fold it unto ourselves.

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Unable to open to the presence of another. To exit exile, then, we must render ourselves vulnerable, capacious.

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Receptive. Redemption and revelation demand radical openness. An inner quieting, so that we might hear the sounds of the others who call to us.

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Such an emptiness, such an emptying. will return us to deep breath, Ms. Shama.

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And to our expansive souls. Neshama.

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Neshima and the Shama. In humbly listening for the whispers of revelation.

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We simultaneously attune ourselves to intimations of the divine.

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How many of us shut down sometimes because it's easier that way?

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How many of us…

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Resist sometimes.

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getting out of stock.

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Because it rests this way,

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It doesn't hurt so much.

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As so personally, so too collectively.

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Yeah.

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And that's why I wrote earlier that…

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The story of the liberation from bondage.

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As important as it is personal,

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It also has a collective bent.

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We collectively were shut down.

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collectively shut us down.

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Perhaps that's the whole point.

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Rachel, you're having a conversation with…

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Richard Wadansky, there's a lot of weather going across the face right now.

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Is there anything you want to come forward?

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I just think there's a lot of truth in this, and I personally.

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You know, feel these things, and I do see them in the community, and.

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Yeah, thank you.

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So, just that. Thank you. Thank you for sharing that piece. Very good.

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You know, activity.

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But at the risk of being. a disgusting optimist.

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Our whole nation got born out of this constriction.

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And if we can remember to look at the constrictions that we're going through.

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As the way to be bought, because we all came through that.

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So to speak. Yep.

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Betal constriction. To get here. Yeah.

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Your birth is bloody every liberation movement.

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It's every social movement came out of a tight place.

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Every single one. You name it.

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that required COVID.

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Not necessarily.

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Right? If there isn't a tight place, no one's going to move toward liberation. They don't feel like they need it.

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I think that's just human nature.

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Which we forget when we're in the thick of it, and we're like, let's rushed.

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James? Yeah.

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Many, James, and then we're gonna do, uh, the cuts curve.

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Maybe… maybe it's the Earth School curriculum.

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Which is not the cuts or Revy.

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Yet.

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So, constriction is a necessary precursor

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or expansion, and for creation.

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Um,

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spoken like a Lurianic Kabbalist.

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I was gonna say, that's very Lorianic, um…

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the whole concept of Simpsum?

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is right around all of that.

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It's self-constriction. Divine self-contraction.

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Yeah, yeah, it's the same basic idea.

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And as below, so above, as above, so below. If God self-constricts for the purpose of making creation possible,

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then so too, sometimes we must constrict.

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So something more can come forward.

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Necessity is the mother of invention.

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Every liberation movement there. There's a reason they called her Grandma Moses.

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So the cuts are… cuts you got me doing.

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I know. Let's start with the cuts car.

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And then the cooks are… and then we'll stop.

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So the great Hasidic master, Rabbi Menachem Mendel of Kutsk, also known as the Kutzker,

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Asked some learned men who were visiting him where is the dwelling place of God?

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Laughing, they responded, what a thing to ask! Is not the whole earth full of God's glory?

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Whole Earth is full of God's glory. Menachem Mendel then answered his own question.

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God dwells wherever we let God in.

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Which you've heard us say, and this is where we get it from.

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It's probably the most famous quote of the Kotzker.

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is that where is God? Wherever we let God in.

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Which sort of comes back to the cons… the…

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Was it that Moses couldn't speak, or that the people couldn't hear?

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Because God can only be when we are

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willing and able to make space to let God in.

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Which now says, in a sense,

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that our relationship with divinity.

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at least in this…

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Jewish and perhaps meta-religious, metaphysical.

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understanding.

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8 linear.

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We find God.

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We yearn for God, we forget God, we get pissed at God.

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The subtle move.

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is, again, fall down, get up.

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It's long to…

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habit are times of…

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Lost out anger.

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That's exactly what they are.

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And also…

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the divine finger.

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I'm bad to me. Let me come back to you.

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Uh-huh.

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that the descent is…

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the beginning of the ascent.

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And convincing ourselves of that at the bottom of the well sometimes is a very hard thing to do.

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Which is why we have come across…

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A really wonderful resource.

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You've heard of the Cutskarabby?

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This now is the cuts are rabby, as in the katzar Ruach.

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Would somebody like to read?

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It is possible that this learning is

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Many centuries old, by the means of…

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A few days ago.

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Someone who hasn't had a chance.

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that way you want it.

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Debra, go ahead and take it.

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So, I am blocked up.

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Both that.

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No, no, here, here, friends.

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Oh, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry. We feel that God is absent.

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As it were, because overwhelmed by circumstances, we blocked God out.

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Must accustom response to discern this condition from the shortness of spirit itself.

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Reconnect the shortness of our spirit.

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to the totality of spirit that has no boundary or measure.

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emerge from it behind.

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From the narrows, I crawl out to you.

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parents to be in y'all's expansiveness.

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The first step is to notice where pain is held tightly.

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Breathe it with mindfulness.

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Let the lungs empty.

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This is open to…

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has expansiveness. I needed that one, thank you.

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You're welcome.

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The cuts of red is really good, isn't it?

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Isn't she, aren't they?

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The Qatar Rebbe might not actually exist, um…

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We really needed a text that would say this this week.

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It seemed like the natural culmination of everywhere we've been.

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And we looked, and we looked, and we couldn't find one. So we brought one forward for you.

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Marcy, you're muted.

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Me and some…

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Three days ago.

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Uh, we wrote it 3 days… we… this is us.

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When is that written?

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We're kidding, there's no such thing as the Kutzerbi.

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We felt like they should exist.

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Wow, sir.

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So you're creating your… you're creating your own ancient Rebbe now?

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Well, you know…

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Yet, while we the first to do that.

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Oh, come on now, now you're talking about Zohar. That's not fair.

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We are.

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So just from the narrows I call out to you, you answer me with expansiveness. That's Psalm 118.

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We sing it in Hallel,

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Right? So, that's the move.

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That we're making it.

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Cuts are, as in cuts are mock.

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Shortness of spirit.

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The constricted, the Rebbe of constrictedness.

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of constricted spirit.

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So that is… that is our best answer for how to, um…

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For how to do the work that this moment demands.

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It is perfect.

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And it's… it's physical.

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Notice that the emotion, the spirit, the psyche,

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entered R.

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Judaism in part.

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here. Says the body.

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As one of the ways…

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animates, we enliven.

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other…

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elements, facets, faces, levels.

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As for our ancestors, they couldn't breathe? How can you breathe?

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When life feels so constricting.

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Right? And so using the body to awaken the other

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faculties is a thing.

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Judaism doesn't say, oh, forget the body, or transcend the body.

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We are endless.

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embodied.

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So, let's use it.

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And this also connects with the Buddhist-style breathwork that so many of us mentioned.

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earlier in our learning, right? How do we… how do we deal with this kind of situation? Well, we… we sit with the breath, we notice what we're feeling, we bring mindfulness.

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We are members of…

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The breath reminds us that we are not.

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Our thoughts, our feelings, they are real, but we are not that.

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Our teachers at IJS, at the Institute for Jewish Spirituality, talk about returning to the breath as a form of teshuvah.

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a fundamental return in every moment we can make tshuva.

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Come back to the breath.

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So doing trauma work.

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And remember what's real.

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and trauma work, and, you know,

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And maybe Brett is your thing, maybe it's SENT, S-C-E-N-T.

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Maybe it's a radical noticing.

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And if I'm…

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wanted by trauma.

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whatever, to suddenly…

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radically shook my focus as best I can.

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Use the tools of the body.

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Use the tools of the body, and some of this body workers, and there's an obvious connection there for us, and for some of us,

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become alienated from our bodies.

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It's our bodies that were liberated, along with our hearts and minds and spirits. It's our bodies that walk through

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See? Some would say it's the bodies that actually manifested the highest level of faith.

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Two weeks from now.

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James Morsi, we're not gonna get to the rest. It will be, uh…

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It'll be a bonus check.

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Okay, took me a minute to find the reference.

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Psalms 5523.

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cast your burden on God, and you will be sustained, the righteous will never be allowed to collapse.

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Yeah.

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That little tidbit has been stretched into so many things.

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somewhat what we're talking about here.

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But, I mean, it even goes all the way to Jesus take the wheel.

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Um, it's… it's the idea that…

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You cannot keep it within yourself, because it will destroy you.

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Yep.

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So, you share it with God,

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etc., etc. And as you said, there's the Buddhist thing, you know?

01:25:33.000 --> 01:25:35.000
who holds the coal, et cetera, et cetera.

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Um, you find this in just about every belief practice, at least every one that I can think of that I've ever studied.

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And it's even a part of relationship advice.

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Yep. And what does that tell us?

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that this, this has been part of the collective spiritual water that folks have been swimming in for thousands of years.

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Perhaps that is a core element of

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But the story from liberation to bondage for this part of Exodus, for what actually helps to exodusify us.

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Matt.

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Yeah. James Morrissey, yeah.

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The idea of trauma? is… it's an event.

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Or a series of happenings. That once they have occurred.

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We can only respond to. But you can't go back.

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And change what happened. But you can change your perception.

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Of it, and. It's so true.

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That trauma… the experience of it.

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lodges in the body. And creates all sorts of symptoms.

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as an acupuncturist. I was treating someone.

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Unbeknownst to me, because they didn't tell me, even though I asked.

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Had been sexually assaulted? And when I needled in a certain place, they flipped.

01:27:08.000 --> 01:27:10.000
Trigger warning, everybody.

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Everybody take care of yourselves.

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Out. And… I had to just.

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Let the person… Cry, and be grounded.

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For that person. But that happens so many years before.

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But it was lodged in certain points in the body.

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And pain lodges itself. And sometimes we get so used to it.

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Right.

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we're not aware that it's there. Until something happens.

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Therapeutic body work can do that also.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah. And so think about it spiritually, too.

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We're approaching time, so maybe this is a, uh, sort of a great place to

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come in for a landing.

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There's a reason that we…

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And there's a reason we retort over.

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And over, and over.

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Every emotion.

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appears in…

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the book.

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It's a big book. This is… this is Tanakh.

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with very small prints.

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Every. Journey.

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of human consciousness, of collective

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plumbing appears in there.

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I literally am metaphorically.

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Every single one.

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relationship to creation and destruction.

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to y'all, to…

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separation from bondage to, you know, you name it.

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renew all of them.

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And so, too, here, every time we come to…

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Exodus. There are people who feel that this was written for them.

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It was. And for some of us, it's gonna be like…

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Yes, yes, yes. Hmm.

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You know, I felt better before I was thinking about my bondage.

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Or our bondage.

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Our bondage.

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Because, again, it's a collective story, this is not just about…

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Yeah.

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My personal journey from constriction to liberation, although I've been on that journey,

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I'm sure I'll be on it again.

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Right? And that's the point.

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We don't just tell the story of we were slaves to Farrowing.

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It was very slaves to a pharaoh of Egypt.

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And…

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The journey is we must prove.

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There's a chat going on in the chat box about different modalities, and we're

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Reaching the dam.

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Reaching the stasis, and sometimes that means

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Feeling. Reconnecting.

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But the very thing that…

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hurts. Think up.

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to bind again.

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We tie my ligate to tyrene.

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Literally, yeah, yeah, yeah. Linda's like, huh?

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Yes, it's true, religion is to reconnect.

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to tie ourselves

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We reconnect with our source, with our stories, with our deepest selves.

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All we had to say is that, today, you know…

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Alright. So, here's a lesson for reconnecting.

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I mean…

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And sometimes that will mean

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into the place and feeling the place where we're tight.

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We invite you to do it if you're doing it today with a Shabbat spirit.

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It's obvious that there can be a delight precisely in that

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to begin.

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Beginning, begin opening, and we notice the days are getting longer everywhere, except…

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Have you noticed.

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It always comes at this time.

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And in a few weeks is Groundhog Day.

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And if he meets his grandhog Day.

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And Tubich what?

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In a few weeks is Groundhog Day.

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And to be shlan.

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Thank you, Delia, thank you. Someone had a laugh at that.

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We will see you next week. A reminder…

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I will not be able to stay on.

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Next week.

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Next week, but we're gonna stay on now.

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So, Shabbat Shalom, everyone, and we'll see you very soon.

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Oh, hold on, I'm gonna put the, uh…

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Stuff in the chat box, give me one second.

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Then I'll stop the recording.

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Here's the marked up.

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source sheet, and then I'll stop the recording.